It's just the story of a kid and his thoughts...

The mark of the creative person is not great ideas alone;

It's also the willingness to give every idea a chance.

Also I would like it to be made known that I don't believe I am agnostic actually. It's that I have daddy issues with my human pops and the father in heaven.

Here's some free advice: postpone the awesome blog post you make at 4 AM (hint: reference to OLP's kick ass song) until the morning.

But I'm still glad I did it now instead of 5 years down the road with my eventual 7 followers.

Never fear, I can see a path up and over the mountain in front of me. It's gonna be ok.

I'll be back so don't you go anywhere!

...and to all a good night.

It's 3:52 AM when I start this post. I'm passingly curious to see how long I will spend on this before watching Reboot until I fall asleep.

I had a talk with Brittany tonight. She and several other friends have really broken through to me over the past... however long school has been going on for. It's a good break-through, albeit an uncomfortable one at times but life should always have some level of discomfort; a balance between complete comfort/stagnation and unpredictability/instability.

Life is Balance. That's one of my themes this school year.

Brittany and I talked about a lot, especially about me. It's a familiar sensation after therapy, one I'm still not quite used to, but I'm becoming used to not being used to it.

Still with me? Good, cause there's more...

There are a few things that I need to keep in mind for my coming life:

Maybe we need to be told the sane thing over and over again; that's why so many songs sound the same in our heads.

I'm proud because I've survived being insecure all my life therefore my insecurities drive me as without them I have no pride.

I think I'm an agnostic because I have so much trouble reconciling God the Father and by extension, Jesus the son.

I am not alone in my actions. There's a community that is affected by everything I do.

I have more questions than answers. And unlike LOST, that's ok.

Letting go is the hardest thing ever. Especially when you're petrified you'll never feel the same way again.

I'm relearning how to feel and how to define those feelings. For example: You trust someone when you feel safe being uncomfortable around them.

I have vices so that I can trust people I don't normally trust. This holds so much appeal because I have not felt safe in a long time.

I also have vices that I use to elevate my mood because they are more consistent at delivering pleasure, even if it is a shallow, momentary thrill.

Alright, Reboot time!!